So, I Guess That Was 2011?
December 31, 2011


And so it is done. Whoop-dee-freakin’ doo.

Long year that blurred by in about three seconds. For me at least. A year of construction, deconstruction, and reconstruction. One of learning about myself, who I really am and what I really want, and don’t want. One of appreciating others in my life and coming into healthier relationships.

I spent all of Christmas weekend in a hospital room helping look after my Dad. He’s still in there this New Year’s Eve. Please send healing energy his way. If you don’t believe in that sort of thing, think positively about him or something.

But anyway, I learned that life can be hard. But it’s a hell of a lot easier for me than many, many others in this world. I learned that we all, all earth-bound beings, are in this together. We all have our life challenges, character flaws, and blessings and beauty. We can choose to share this life with each other or insulate ourselves from each other. There are good times for each of those actions. And we should listen to our selves.

That thing, that stuff, that web that seems to connect us seems to have some intelligence or wisdom or something. From my experience, it speaks to me through me, and through others, including people and other-than-peoples. I’ve been learning to listen a little better, through the joy and pain. It all has something beneficial to say. Maybe not always pleasant, but beneficial.

Anyway, that’s about it.


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“What’s Gonna Happen?”… “Something Wonderful.”
January 1, 2010

Let’s start a new decade optimistically.

The 1984 movie 2010 is one of my old favorites. I woke up this morning and discovered this recently created montage from the film, and I really like it because it radiates optimism. Let it play on while you scroll down and read the rest of the post…or just join the Techno Twins and twirl your glo sticks to the beat. 😀

Since I was a kid, the idea of the year 2010 has fascinated me for some reason. Maybe just because it always sounded like 2010 would officially be “the future.” Now it’s here.

When I was maybe 7 or 8, I was working on a chore which had me moving a huge pile of bricks, and I was throwing them in a wheelbarrow one by one. It was the first time I ever felt a real drop of sweat roll down my face. I remember it distinctly. I remember daydreaming as I was moving the bricks: I figured out how old I would be in 2010 and I imagined I would be a real man, with a beard and tough hands, who could sweat large rolling beads. Now, nearly three decades later, I’m a man, although I can’t grow a full beard, my hands aren’t tough, and I only sweat if I really really want to go outside in the Texas summer heat.

But I think one thing that has made me feel more like a “man,” whatever that is, is the fact that I have intentionally decided to live honestly with myself and others. While I don’t make New Year’s resolutions because I know I’ll disappoint myself, I do try to project myself in an intentional direction, and the re-setting of the Roman calendar just happens to be a nice turn of numbers to pause and check my bearings. [selah]

What are our bearings? Will you take time to breathe with me for maybe 1 minute? Just take a few very slow, deeeeep breaths … in … out …. Calm your mind. Feel your soul centering itself.  Breathe out busyness … Breathe in peace. Breath out tension … Breathe in positive, holy energy.

Life is beautiful. Now, as Dr. Laura says, “Go do the right thing.”

If you enjoy breathing deeply or meditating, whether you don’t believe anything or if you’re a dedicated Christian, you might like the exercises at